Frankly speaking, I remembered my blog only because I was bored. So bored that I seriously considered fixing all the tags in my MP3 files!! I should have seen this coming when a month ago my TODO list dried up. Nothing to do!
Today, its been a week that I have nothing to do and let me tell you that it is mighty frustrating! I am not used to it. No work pressures (no objective to achieve either). Nothing new to learn (well, ofcourse there is loads of stuff to learn, but just learning them to forget is useless. I learn something only when I get a feeling that I'll need it in the near future. Currently, there's no such need. I think I know everything that I am going to need). Nothing to pursue (Its been ages since I quit sketching, skating, basketball. I am game for restarting basketball, but it needs a team and there's no one I know who plays basketball. Anyone?).
Earlier I used to pass time in movies, serials, books and following cricket, chess and a bit of tennis. But, all these passive means of entertainment do not provide any sense of satisfaction. They are just meant to kill time. I long for something active where I play a part. Something real. Something like working on a software package or basketball or table tennis. My favourite passtime used to be to get stuff working in Linux (dns servers and mail servers and dhcp servers and what not). But, even that is just passive and uninteresting now. And there's nothing new to get working ;-)
Its been 7 days I am searching for something to get involved in. Since I am posting to the blog, obviously I have had no luck and now I am just pissed off with myself. To be frank, I have had some thoughts, but, all of those were silenced by "Fakt 5-6 mahinyansathi karaycha? whats the use?".
I need rescuing :-)
Seasons of the Palm by Perumal Murugan
1 week ago